Or the Day Where You Don't Eat And Think You're Going To Lose Your Mind And Then You See Bagels At The End Of The Tunnel And You're Sane Once More.
Whatever you choose to call this holiday, it's still a day to atone and/or repent for what you feel you did wrong. More about that here.
This year, since I'm 23 and most people would consider that to be an adult age, I really thought about atonement and what I'd like to be forgiven for. I did this while driving to work this morning and looking at my phone simultaneously.
I decided right then and there that I had to repent for using my cell phone while driving.
Go ahead, yell at me. I would. It's a terrible habit and it ends now.
Then I thought about what else I'd like God to forgive me for. Here's what I came up with.
- I'd like to be forgiven for losing my temper with the people closest to me. Don't they say that you hurt the people you love the most? I think this falls under that category in one way or another.
- I'd like to be forgiven for my occasional procrastination. It's a lame habit and I start working to stop it now.
- I'd like to be forgiven for not attending services. Like, ever. I'm almost embarrassed to write that here because how can I call myself a Jew if I never practice it where it matters the most? It's a behavior (or a lack thereof) that I cringe at and I make more of an effort now.
- I'd like to be forgiven for being so damn hard on myself. When I step outside of my head (a rare occurrence, but it's been done before), I see how awful a practice it is. How unhealthy and futile it is for me to knock myself down and stay there for awhile. Lame even. So I'm not at the weight I used to be. I exercise and watch what I eat. So I don't have a full time job right now. I am proactive in looking and have motivation to move forward. Leave yourself alone, Ali. It's an abusive way to be and I look on the positive side of things now.
Now if you'll excuse me, I don't think one more bagel with lox and cream cheese would hurt...
* (What, you're not a Jew? Too bad. Tell me anyway!)



































